This one life...#1

Searching in this one life...

Not long ago, when I used to walk on the road,

When warm was the space, little was the snow;

That was long ago, it seems to me,

Yes that was long ago...

Yearning nothing but the need to love

Yearning nothing but the creed to love

Yet what I saw was but greed

Spawning slowly in the gardens its seeds,

In this one life...

So much I pondered on the meaning of mine,

So much I lost time sublime,

So much I assessed myself and thy

So much I went through in pain all time

So much I felt,

In this one life...

So much I yelled,

So much I cried

So much I felt

So much I tried

So much I failed not long ago

That I felt abashed to lead

In this one life...

There is death

Which I feared for long

Then one day I felt love so strong

Yet again I was choking for help

All I did again was to but help

I have searched it for long

It not just came but offered help along

I have spent many years of mine

Which I borrowed

From this one life...

I remember some little shards

Shards of life and its beloved bards

For long for me had peace in them dwelt

In others songs, my angst knelt

And yet have not I reconciled with past

Singing songs that press it hard

I know not how much I have time

But I never wanted them to move in me

In this one life...

At the end, I feel I am dark

Yet in me there is light's Hallow shard

I live on their meticulous design

Not balanced yet shallow sublime

And all I seek is a gladdened air

A breath of improvisation fair

To grow a little each day in sight

To make each day a bit fairer

In this one life...

Dear lord, full of rhymes so sweet

Someday you and I shall meet

Singing our songs to the eternal time

There shall I lay to rest

This one life...